Maybe, Perhaps, Probably.
After 22 years teaching in primary schools, I resigned this summer. I am 44. I am a good teacher. I love teaching so what went wrong?
Maybe I am just burnt out? Perhaps after 22 years teaching full time in the classroom takes its toll on us? I wonder if we struggle more with our mental health the longer we stay in the classroom?
Maybe having my own children (who are at primary school) has created a conflict of interest and I now find it hard to balance the two. Perhaps, I spend more time thinking about the children at school than my own children? Actually I know I do.
Maybe I worry about how teaching is affecting my mental and physical health. Perhaps leaving teaching will have a massive, positive effect on my wellbeing and overall happiness.
Maybe I want to feel like I’ve actually had a good nights sleep? Perhaps my mental ‘to do list’ is too overwhelming at times and creates unnecessary anxiety?
Maybe I crave to have more time to invest in myself, friends and family instead of doing school work most nights at home. Perhaps I want to enjoy Sundays with my family without thinking about all the work I need to cram in at some point during the day?
Maybe going through a personal family tragedy has somehow affected my priorities and no longer care as much about certain aspects of the job? Perhaps it has put aspects of the job more into prospective and I’ve realised it’s only a job; a job that is actually too hard to sustain at the levels expected without encroaching on time at home.
Maybe it’s because I tire more easily as I’ve become older? Perhaps I just don’t have the same level of energy and ‘get up and go’ as I used to and that affects my day to day enthusiasm?
Maybe I am fed up with being micro managed to such a point it feels suffocating? Perhaps the lack of trust and autonomy has simply demotivated me?
Maybe I don’t like being told how to use my display boards and how and when to mark books? Perhaps I am fed up with countless learning walks and observations where I have to be seen to be doing particular things SLT want to see?
Maybe I am tired of being told progress is too slow or not good enough and then interrogated in pupil progress meetings, grilling me as to what I am doing about it? Perhaps I am angry that pupil progress is mostly about data from countless tests?
Maybe it was because a particular headteacher destroyed the confidence of many teachers at one school I worked at (who all had a proven track record of good teaching) because he was under pressure to show his impact? Perhaps I never recovered from that experience and I am still shocked that schools could be run like this?
Maybe I am fed up of being told what fads SLT want to see in lessons followed by the inevitable feedback on how to do them better? (most of which are not based on research or years of experience). Perhaps I feel confused as to what I should be doing in lessons now and feel restricted in how I want to deliver lessons naturally?
Maybe I don’t want to use particular coloured slides or resources that we have to use? Perhaps I don’t want to follow a particular scheme of work because it’s poor but I am told I have to?
Maybe I find the introduction of initiative after initiative a little tedious now? Perhaps I’ve seen it all before and just want to be able to use my professional judgement?
Maybe I don’t want my books to be scrutinised every few weeks to see if I am following the book non-negotiables? Perhaps I want SLT to look at the progress first and congratulate me on my teaching rather than on how often I have deep marked and what colour pens I use?
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I’m interested in what you now plan to do. What is life after teaching? Still have bills and mortgage to cover.
That’s right ! This is the school system of default education in which teachers are working hard in the classroom without any effective system of learning transfer. High class teaching is provided in the classroom but knowledge is not transferred to student’s brain. Teachers are over stressed, burning out and facing the problems of massive workloads.
Schools are running on the defective system of knowledge transfer. Government authorities can’t fix the defects of learning system but they are fixing the teachers in the school system of default education.
The scientific system of knowledge transfer is required in the classroom, so everything will be finished in school hours. The effective system of learning transfer can produce high performing students in the classroom and teachers won’t be stressed for tests and grades.
In fact, teaching is not scientific system and it cannot process knowledge transfer to student’s brain regions. Classrooms are launched on the theories of motivation, instruction and cognition. These dimensions of cognitive model school system can’t provide effective learning transfer in the classroom.
I’m sorry for your troubles. You spent many years in school system but your hard work is not respected. We have to change school system in which teachers will work in the classroom with the scientific system of knowledge transfer. Thanks for the informative writing
So many of my own feelings summed up here, though I am only 13 years in and haven’t had a class of my own for 3 years, choosing to do supply and then intervention teaching instead. It would take an awful lot for me to return to having my own class.
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Everything said here resonates so much. I’ve just left teaching too but after only 5 years. Just can’t do it anymore.
Good luck with your endeavours and recovery!
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This could have been written by me – I just haven’t gotten round to it. I’m finding myself much more relaxed and being a mum to my two boys far more rewarding.
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Wow this is me! Only difference I was a secondary teacher and only 12 years in, however perhaps the fact I didn’t go in to teaching till my late 30’s has a bearing on it 🤷♀️ Who knows… what I do know is I left a profession I once loved broken , mentally and physically drained …. good luck x I’m still in education but not in schools and much happier for it x
Wow this was me two years ago, its a massive step to leave but once you escape the school bubble life is good on the outside. I joined the civil service loads of transferable skills you dont realise you have and now have Fridays, Saturdays and Sundays back. I miss bits of teaching but not the scrutiny or pointless targets. Good luck
So very sad to see such resonance. I need to stay in it to change it but its super hard for the reasons outlined. Good luck with whatever you move to…
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